My kids hate me

I spent the better part of my life trying to raise my five kids...and apparently all I did was screw them up. I have things thrown in my face daily about how horrible I was to them. Some will barely even talk to me. I wonder why it is I feel so much love for them, and they so much anger towards me. I tried my best...didn't I?

How could I have been so horrible to them...what is it that I could do different? I don't know...I spend most of my days running around trying to prove that I am a good person because they all think I'm an awful bitch.

What did I do? What did I do right? What did I do wrong? How can I make it right?

I have to forgive myself until they can learn too...I am a good person, I did try to do right by them. I love them so much...and am trying to love myself.